Well, the past 2 weeks have really gotten away from me and I am just now getting to our Thankfulness post. I promise that we are still talking about being thankful and taking pictures, I just haven’t had the chance to sit down and write. So here it is!
It has been the kind of week where, you wake up on Sunday and just know that this week is going to be long, frustrating and exhausting. In all honesty I haven’t felt this way for a really long time. My depression hasn’t been as bad. It seems to get better during the summer. You would think with all the vitamin d, fresh air, and exercise that I am getting depression wouldn’t even be an option. That’s the thing, you can’t choose when depression shows up. you can be perfectly fine one day and the next you are at the bottom of that deep dark hole and can’t find your way out. It isn’t always an event or something someone says, it just happens. I know that is a frustrating answer but unless you have dealt with or are dealing with depression there is just no other way to describe it.
We are starting a new adventure in our house. The adventure of homeschooling. I honestly never thought that I would home school but after many hours of prayer, research and phone calls that were never returned by the school district I came to the decision to home school. The firefighter is only 5 so it won’t be really intense but he has a desire to learn, so I started to search for what I could do at home to encourage him and challenge him.
If you are a parent you can appreciate the fear that I had when my kids asked if we could go on an adventure. Most of the time ‘going on an adventure’ means a lot of whining, crying and general sibling squabbles. They most of the time can’t agree on what will happen on said adventure. Yesterday, I was pleasantly surprised. They both have been missing their daddy and just really wanted a distraction. So, we loaded up the car and started off!
Yesterday my husband left for the annual training with his National Guard Unit. This summer the training is 4 weeks! Most summers it is just 2 weeks. For some odd reason, I am really struggling with it this summer. It is only 4 weeks! What is my issue? I have been through a year-long deployment, while pregnant with a toddler. Why is 4 weeks seeming impossible to me? I am an army wife. This should not be difficult!